Feeling history

Walking into Sachsenhausen is one of the most bizarre, eery and emotional things I’ve done as a tourist. I went on a chilly day at the start of the year. Only two nights before had I been celebrating the new year and gazed at the fireworks. Now I plowed through the new snow and felt…

No winning without losing (part 3)

I still don’t know what caused my depression. Maybe I am just prone to it. Sometimes I am afraid it will come back one day, for whatever reason. Right now I’ve got things under control. I’ve taken control of my life and I have few responsibilities, which makes things easier. I don’t have to do…

No winning without losing (part 2)

Healing takes time, especially when it concerns your mind. When you’ve imprinted certain ideas, certain patterns in your way of thinking, they are not easily changed. Slowly, you have to accept what’s going on up there. If you’ve always told yourself you are not worth a dime, you don’t just wake up one day loving yourself.…

No winning without losing (part 1)

One of my favorite bands has a very powerful line in one of their songs. “Never fear to suffer, never hide behind a smile.” It’s a quote from The Shandon, an Italian skapunk band that sings in English as well as Italian. This band was part of my youth. I discovered them when I was…

Home is… at the end of the road

I’m travelling on the road of ups and downs. My life is just like the winding roads through the mountains, sometimes exhilarating, sometimes scary and slow. Life on the road is often unpredictable. You are never sure of finding a job, having income, or even finding a place to sleep. For someone who plans everything…

88 days diaries: Shock and tears

During my travels I’ve met lots of different people. I’ve come across some situations where I felt like I was being pushed around. Somehow people think they can treat you like shit because you are a traveller. I find it hard to deal with this, but sometimes you’ve got to stand up and find out…